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[banworthy]

We're all just posing questions to each other for fun, right?

Then, is immortality wrong for mortals to experience?

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[banworthy]

What? What are you talking about?

[ WHAT. ]

Listen. I can accept a lot of things. I'm probably more accepting than most. Even in the situation that we're in, I went forward with an "okay." You wish for me to accept an angel of the Lord is so dismissive of his God? [ This is where his contention is. Valtiel would never! ] Perhaps, that is why you are slated to die when you return - you did mention that, but the fact that your God lets you live at all?

Please.

[messenger]

My Father abandoned me, abandoned the world — He doesn't care enough to kill me. Why bother? The world is dying.

[ like a switch has been flipped, castiel's demeanor, which was a moment ago naive and bumbling, becomes hissed and venomous. ]

But, yes. I'm a poor excuse for an angel. I appreciate the reminder.

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[banworthy]

[ Well, that pain sounds real. ]

[banworthy]

Do you play the fool to make humans feel at ease around you, angel?

You needn't do that for me, I assure you.

[ Let's start there before they go anywhere else, hm? ]

[messenger]

No.

I don't.

[banworthy]

Well, I guess this returns to being a poor excuse for an angel and an angel inhabiting a vessel.

But either way, you still have room to grow. In the latter description, anyway.

[messenger]

Would you like to hear my true voice? I think that could be arranged.

[banworthy]

Will my head explode?

[messenger]

There's a non-zero possibility.

[ he's pretty pissed. ]

[banworthy]

I'll have to say "no," then.

I'm sadly not yet suicidal, even if I've already died.

[ :) ]

[messenger]

A pity you didn't stay that way.

[banworthy]

Honestly, I agree.

[messenger]

... You do?

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[banworthy]

Yes.

[banworthy]

I'll share something with you, Castiel, since we're growing so close to one another.

I don't care if I end up saving my universe that I go back to being a corpse.

My faith is stronger than yours.

1/2

[messenger]

[ castiel halts.

considering this. ]

[messenger]

[ and then: ]

You're right.

[banworthy]

There, there, Castiel.

At the very least, you have my pity.

[messenger]

Wonderful.

[banworthy]

Come on, now. Don't be so glum.

It's better to be pitied openly than be treated delicately, right?

[messenger]

It makes no difference.

[banworthy]

Because you have no ego left?

[messenger]

Because nothing you have to say matters.

[banworthy]

Oh, I dunno.

I'm sure you'll carry the wounds of this conversation for some time, Castiel.

I'm just trying to tell you that those are wounds you already had and were being ignored 'cause people are being too nice to you.

[messenger]

It's self-aggrandizing to take the credit of those who came before you.

If you think I haven't heard as much and worse before now, you're a bigger fool than you sound.

[ and with that, he cuts the connection.

if there's anything that truly wounds him — it's that this cruelty is human sourced. not from a demon, or an angel. but the very species he gave everything for.

that's what will remain with him days from now. ]