My feelings are approximately 5% pity, 5% judgement of you, 70% judgement of the people around you, and 20% an unspecified negative emotion that I haven't properly interpreted yet and am unlikely to as it causes me great discomfort.
I understand that your abilities are unique. That is why working you until you throw yourself off a high tower with no backup plan is moronic. Not to mention that if your abilities are unique then nobody will be able to tell if you're making mistakes, which becomes exponentially more likely the longer you're denied proper rest.
It sounds to me as though the people in charge of governing your world don't want to do their jobs and would rather rely on your guilt until you drown yourself in a river. They're idiots. If there are millions of people, then even if it takes a thousand people to replicate the scale of your work, it's still perfectly doable. If the ability itself is too rare, then people need to specialize in other forms of care and medicine, even if they are slower. We can heal broken bones immediately, but if we need to prioritize other matters, it is best for those with broken bones to have them set and wait for them to heal.
Setting aside those who are governing (as in my experience there are many people who want the power of governing with none of the responsibility), I am also heavily judging your family and friends if you have them. If you are alone, I am judging how the people around you prefer to exploit that vulnerability. They are not good people.
CW: Mentions of suicide
I understand that your abilities are unique. That is why working you until you throw yourself off a high tower with no backup plan is moronic. Not to mention that if your abilities are unique then nobody will be able to tell if you're making mistakes, which becomes exponentially more likely the longer you're denied proper rest.
It sounds to me as though the people in charge of governing your world don't want to do their jobs and would rather rely on your guilt until you drown yourself in a river. They're idiots. If there are millions of people, then even if it takes a thousand people to replicate the scale of your work, it's still perfectly doable. If the ability itself is too rare, then people need to specialize in other forms of care and medicine, even if they are slower. We can heal broken bones immediately, but if we need to prioritize other matters, it is best for those with broken bones to have them set and wait for them to heal.
Setting aside those who are governing (as in my experience there are many people who want the power of governing with none of the responsibility), I am also heavily judging your family and friends if you have them. If you are alone, I am judging how the people around you prefer to exploit that vulnerability. They are not good people.