Fabian feels his jaw dropping a little bit. Because-- yeah, he gets why Riz is proposing that solution. And it'd probably be good, because then Riz would have a place for all of this that wouldn't get in the way of anything else, and it's not like Fabian wants to stop him from getting into his.. hobby, if you could call it that.
On the other hand, he knows what Riz is like. The moment the guy sets up an office here, he's definitely not returning to the apartment again. He's just going to sleep in there - maybe not even as a conscious decision, but maybe more because he forgets the time, because he just stays there overnight, because he gets lost in it all.
And then Fabian.. will be here.
In an empty space by himself. Left behind.
Maybe it's a cycle he can't escape.
It leaves a feeling like heartburn in his chest. It's so hard, because he doesn't want to say anything about it. He doesn't want to bother anyone else with his own dumb issues that he should be over, and-- besides, Riz would be happy with his own office, right? It'd be fine. It'd be better. Maybe not for Fabian, but it'll learn him to get better in time. ]
I mean..
[ ...
Something shifts about Fabian. He looks obviously awkward. Maybe in that sort of way where he's half-trying to hide it, but if anyone could see beyond that, it's private investigator Riz Gukgak, right. ]
.. Would you want to?
[ He doesn't want him to.
But Fabian learned how to smother selfish wishes like that a long time ago, way before he even met the other Bad Kids in the first place. Back when it was his parents he couldn't ask to stay. ]
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Fabian feels his jaw dropping a little bit. Because-- yeah, he gets why Riz is proposing that solution. And it'd probably be good, because then Riz would have a place for all of this that wouldn't get in the way of anything else, and it's not like Fabian wants to stop him from getting into his.. hobby, if you could call it that.
On the other hand, he knows what Riz is like. The moment the guy sets up an office here, he's definitely not returning to the apartment again. He's just going to sleep in there - maybe not even as a conscious decision, but maybe more because he forgets the time, because he just stays there overnight, because he gets lost in it all.
And then Fabian.. will be here.
In an empty space by himself. Left behind.
Maybe it's a cycle he can't escape.
It leaves a feeling like heartburn in his chest. It's so hard, because he doesn't want to say anything about it. He doesn't want to bother anyone else with his own dumb issues that he should be over, and-- besides, Riz would be happy with his own office, right? It'd be fine. It'd be better. Maybe not for Fabian, but it'll learn him to get better in time. ]
I mean..
[ ...
Something shifts about Fabian. He looks obviously awkward. Maybe in that sort of way where he's half-trying to hide it, but if anyone could see beyond that, it's private investigator Riz Gukgak, right. ]
.. Would you want to?
[ He doesn't want him to.
But Fabian learned how to smother selfish wishes like that a long time ago, way before he even met the other Bad Kids in the first place. Back when it was his parents he couldn't ask to stay. ]