etraya | un: butterfly

well... i guess it depends where you're stabbed. and how big the thing that stabbed you was. vital organs can be hard for me but i can fix some of the damage. i'll do my best. you'll still feel like you got stabbed but you shouldn't die unless you had a really bad time

also the sooner i can get to you the better

[ He sends another message: ]

i'll try learning to get better

I think getting stabbed through is a bad time no matter what? i think getting stabbed at all is a bad time [in her experience anyway!

Gorgug is sweet. he really does try his hardest and it makes her smile to see his words.]

You do enough, sweetie. really. you can't take on every tragic case.

it really is. have you been stabbed? i've been stabbed a lot. it hurts. [ It sucks!! He doesn't care how resistant he can make himself to attacks!! It huuuuurts.

He does think on her next message, though. ]

do i sound like a bummer? i guess i'm always trying to think about what i could do to make things easier here. it's hard to shut that off

[YEAH, GORGUG. GETTING STABBED SUCKS. SHE AGREES.]

Can't say I have but I'll take your word for it. [normal women don't get stabbed multiple times haha! she'll keep that experience to herself.]

You don't sound like a bummer. You sound like a nice guy wanting to help everybody and I'm sounding like a friend not wanting you to wear yourself out.

[ All the coolest women he knows have surely gotten stabbed multiple times!!!! Join the gang, Maria...! ]

to be honest, i really only care about the people around me... and fighting hasn't been a big deal so far with the missions? that's what i usually do

but i'll take it easy. i'm learning robotics. that's something i like

[ That's called "taking it easy". ]

[her backstory as very normal and unassuming doesn't work with 'hey i've actually been impaled twice' unfortunately.]

At least you've got boundaries

but you've got a great work ethic. I'll have to take tips. just don't want you getting burned out, buddy [this has been great for getting the topic off of her.]

[ Things Gorgug is great at: being perceptive. Especially over text. ]

i won't. there's no one pushing me. i had a lot more schoolwork back home

but i have tips if you want to start learning something. like from books? i had to find a system to help me remember everything. highlights help a lot. and making bullet points. and showing examples

[ See, they're clearly talking about work ethics here now. ]

[just the deadline of your universe being destroyed but she's not going to mention that. doesn't seem like he would take it well!]

how do you make it interesting? i think that's my biggest struggle. seems like i'm a hands on learner.

well... i had to learn equations for mathematics so to start with i used books to get down to basics. and videos online. i got the system down and did exercises that had the answers so i had something to go off

and then i started applying it to what i wanted it for. so measurements, mass calculations, thinking about velocity...

school helped me to keep applying it and pushed me. i got ideas for small things i wanted to make. or i had projects i had to do and i had to aim to get them good enough to get a pass.

but just doing it is fun too. i had to learn to break everything down because artificing is a lot about getting the right calculations but i guess it matters what you're into?

apparently I'm from a time before most of you. No idea how you even find videos online. but that seems easier than reading anything.

Anyway you're smart. That much is obvious. as a high school dropout I don't think I have the same smarts you feel me?? and I'm still trying to figure out what I want to be when I grow up

i can help you if you find something you want to study. or a bunch of things. we can get you a computer and i know you can get files from aurora if you're okay spending a couple of points

and it's okay if you don't feel very smart now. i didn't for a long time. i still feel dumb a lot of the time. you just have to find something you really like. and i know that can take a while

i only figured out the last year i wanted to do all this stuff. i was ready to be content just smashing things in with my axe before that. and i tried a lot of things that i was good at but didn't really care about? some of it was cool but...

i don't miss sports

you're reminding me how i don't even know how to use a computer. the gap is big between us

but you're being kind of inspirational right now. Making me feel like I'm not totally hopeless.

even if I've had longer to figure this stuff out. [not really but still. she's supposed to.]

finding something you're really into and not feeling like there's nothing out there for you is pretty cool. i recommend it

if you didn't have a reason to use a computer then why would you, right

you can go to the library or the book store and just go down and see what books they have on random subjects. if you don't know where to start

it would be cool to see what you find an interest in

Having hobbies and a sense of purpose does seem pretty cool. you got me there. I'll have to try it out.

I tried reading up on things. lots of things. have to say I don't think being a book type is my thing.

yeah, we really need....computers. so we can watch videos. i'm just going to books because that's what we have most of

we've gotta find a way to bring the internet to etraya. an intranet? i can ask aurora about it

Harold talked to me a bit about computers and really I think I've got no brain for them so I'll leave it to you

but who knows? maybe if you teach me about them then we'll find out I'm a real brain for it.

[doubtful! but hey, she can be positive.]

what did he tell you? the coolest stuff is the music and videos and free stuff you can find if you know where to look

[ Was Harold being a nerd!!! ]

[he was absolutely being a nerd.]

It wasn't about any of that for sure. People listen to music on it??

yeah. you can even get crystals that let you talk to people and do this kind of stuff but you can put music on it so you can listen to it on the move

i can show you mine. i don't go anywhere without it. you can also play games too

crystals? [she doesn't know much but she thinks this might be a magic thing. she'd seen computers and they'd never had crystals before????]

I'm game though. good to figure myself out, right? maybe I'm a nerd.

it's a crystal that works the same way as the earpiece does. except you can hold it in your hand

there's a plastic and metal version but i don't remember the name

but cool. we can meet up sometime. any time you see me i'll have it on me

[this is going right over her head. she's pretty sure she was not meant to be a nerd.

but the fact that Gorgug tries to explain things and offers to help her...]

you're such a sweetheart Gorgug. you know that?

[ Ohh... being called sweet by an older woman!! ]

thank you. i like you too

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