text; un: vivi

[ornitiers]

what do you do when something you were told, turns out not to be true anymore? not true here? when you have more time than you thought. i didn't have to really think about the future. but here, i don't have to worry. i can plan. i mean, besides helping on missions.

[Being told he probably wouldn't live much longer than a year or so. And then Aurora reassured him that that wasn't the case. Vivi now has a lot to consider....]

Comments

[lockdownbuild]

You come off as nice, helpful, and reasonable.

And even putting that aside, I like my mortal enemy more than I liked Cissy I think it would be nice to adventure with a capable spellcaster who I can actually trust.

[ornitiers]

oh. well, um. thank you? i guess my spells could help, it'd just depend on what you'd need a mage for? mine are more offensive for fighting, really.

[lockdownbuild]

That's all I'm good for too, fighting, so if any situation where that's not called for I'm as unsuited to as you are. Of course we're both more than our abilities, right?

[ornitiers]

you, too? i guess. i just hope i can still help somehow. more than our abilities?

[lockdownbuild]

Just because we're good at fighting doesn't mean we can't do other things, right? There's plenty of ways to help out.

[ornitiers]

i do want to. if i can figure out how.

[lockdownbuild]

You're trying to figure out how and that's a really good step towards doing it. It's more than a lot of people do.

[ornitiers]

you think so? i mean, i guess it's a start, but. i guess i feel like it seems like i should know more? be more confident?

[lockdownbuild]

How much of that feeling like you've got to be better immediately comes from being used to not having much time?

[ornitiers]

huh? um. i don't know. maybe that's part of it?

[lockdownbuild]

In some ways, that feeling's never going to go away. I still have it. But use it as motivation, not self-denigration. It's not that you're 'supposed' to be better now, it's that you want to be better today than you were yesterday, and better tomorrow than you were today. Gives you something to aim for.

[ornitiers]

use it as motivation? oh. right! yeah. i can try that!

[lockdownbuild]

You got it. We all started at the bottom. But no one climbed higher without wanting to.

[ornitiers]

right! i think i get it! i like that idea, yeah.

[lockdownbuild]

And if you ever need some help, feel free to ask.

[ornitiers]

um, okay. it wouldn't be bothering you?

[lockdownbuild]

Not at all. It'd be a nice break from the boredom.

[ornitiers]

oh. alright. i will, then. if it's okay.

[lockdownbuild]

In general, it will be. If there's ever a reason it's not a good time, I'll explain why as best I can and reschedule, okay?

[ornitiers]

alright. that sounds fine with me. i'm not sure if i can really offer the same, but. i can at least try and listen? if you need as well?

[lockdownbuild]

See? You're already doing good and helpful things without needing your magic.

Thanks. I'm mostly just grumpy because I've been shooting for a goal for a long time and haven't succeeded yet.

[ornitiers]

i am? i'm....trying.

oh. well, maybe you just need some help? if you can't manage it alone?

[lockdownbuild]

I have some help, but it hasn't gotten us anywhere yet. Unfortunately, experienced and capable help is rare to come by, and most everyone has their own things they need to worry about.

[ornitiers]

i guess that's true. people have their own things they are dealing with and working towards. but that doesn't mean you can't still help each other. support each other.

[lockdownbuild]

If our paths go the same way for long enough, and don't compromise either of our goals. It's harder than you'd think to manage that when you're dealing with some pretty nasty stuff.