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what do you do when something you were told, turns out not to be true anymore? not true here? when you have more time than you thought. i didn't have to really think about the future. but here, i don't have to worry. i can plan. i mean, besides helping on missions.

[Being told he probably wouldn't live much longer than a year or so. And then Aurora reassured him that that wasn't the case. Vivi now has a lot to consider....]

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Enjoy it, I guess?

I mean i got told some stuff i didn't believe at first were true, but once you realize they are, you can enjoy it to the fullest!

[ it's a good thing she doesn't know vivi is a baby because otherwise this would be heartbreaking! ]

I'd start with making a list! What are some things you've wanted to do that you didn't think you'd have time for?

I think you just have to decide what feels true to you. Not pretending the truth doesn't matter. It does.

But you also get to decide what to do with it.

[ !!! Gorgug thinks he knows what this is about, but that's probably bad to bring up in public, right? ]

do you like those chocobos? did you ride those back home?

[ He remembers Vivi knows about them, but he's forgotten how involved he was with them. ]

[ Oh, well. This hits a little too close for Lune. Maybe that's just why she's responding. ]

I know that feeling. It can be a little overwhelming.

Planning is good. It helps to keep busy. What did you do back home, what interests do you have? Any hobbies? Perhaps you can start there.

I guess first of all you have to figure out how you feel about it. Happy? Sad?

I will tell you this right now: it doesn't matter too much, actually.

We don't know what tomorrow will bring, ever. Everything could change. We could all die at any moment. Not to be too negative, but it is possible.

So you live a life without regrets to the best of your ability, right? All this news does is maybe change what your regrets might be. So that's where you start.

I've been treating it like borrowed time, honestly.
It may not last forever, but
I want to make the most of it while it does
No point not to, y'know?

but it wasn't always easy to think like that
for a long time, I was scared of what happened when I went back
but that's kind of the thing, really
no one knows when our time is up usually
and if we do, it's up to us to make those moments really count I think

[Oh, man. Him too?]

I dunno. "The future" is so far off anyhow--but it's nice to know if you don't have like, absolutely definitely a short time.

[Well. Paine knows someone who had to answer this question.]

You do whatever the hell you want to do. Figure out what you love best about living and do it as hard as you can.

If you’ve been bracing yourself for an end that never came, no wonder you feel unmoored. I’ve had similar moments-when the future I expected was torn out from under me, and I was left staring at something I’d never considered: time.

The trouble is, time is both gift and tyrant. With more of it, you can plan, yes, but you’ll also find it whispering that you’re wasting it if you’re not careful. My advice, for whatever it’s worth, is to take the same precision you bring to a battlefield and aim it at your days. Make small plans first, test them, discard what doesn’t suit. Build a future the way you’d build a rifle: piece by piece, until it fits your hand perfectly.

It will never stop feeling strange, but strange is survivable. You’ve already proven that.

Edited 2025-09-07 12:06 (UTC)

I don't really know, is there anything you've ever wanted to try? That could be a good start.

Did you get any good answers?

[ It's so applicable to his own mess of shattered expectations and relearning everything he thought he knew that for a moment he thinks it might be Maelle or Sciel pranking him again.

But no. ]

If you find an answer, will you let me know?

Truthfully, I think it helps to focus on what you do know to be true, and on small things you enjoy or people you care about. Do you have friends here, or family?

the only thing you should do when you stop worrying is just have fun right

[ Maybe it's a little bit of an oversimplification in ways, but it's all Fabian can think of - like a typical teenager - as he reads this message.. ]

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