text; un: vivi

[ornitiers]

what do you do when something you were told, turns out not to be true anymore? not true here? when you have more time than you thought. i didn't have to really think about the future. but here, i don't have to worry. i can plan. i mean, besides helping on missions.

[Being told he probably wouldn't live much longer than a year or so. And then Aurora reassured him that that wasn't the case. Vivi now has a lot to consider....]

Comments

[lockdownbuild]

Defining terms for you then. A wizard studies and memorizes many spells but has less power to cast them in a given period. A sorcerer develops spells innately from their nature, so has a few spells they can cast repeatedly. A warmage is basically a sorcerer who knows a lot more spells, but only combat-related ones.

[Although the wizard she'd worked with had been... well, let's just look at those definitions and then say he was a wizard who only knew combat spells. Which is why she rarely mentions his contributions.]

[ornitiers]

oh. i guess maybe a warmage sounds more like me? i'm a black mage, so the spells i know are mostly offensive magic for battle. since we were made to fight.

[lockdownbuild]

[Very young. Made to fight. Discovering more time than expected. Don't need to draw her a map.]

We had a warmage in our number during the last half of our battles at home, so I know how useful they can be. And hey, I already like you better than her, so you're definitely a good companion as far as I'm concerned.

[ornitiers]

you do? but. you barely know me yet?

[lockdownbuild]

You come off as nice, helpful, and reasonable.

And even putting that aside, I like my mortal enemy more than I liked Cissy I think it would be nice to adventure with a capable spellcaster who I can actually trust.

[ornitiers]

oh. well, um. thank you? i guess my spells could help, it'd just depend on what you'd need a mage for? mine are more offensive for fighting, really.

[lockdownbuild]

That's all I'm good for too, fighting, so if any situation where that's not called for I'm as unsuited to as you are. Of course we're both more than our abilities, right?

[ornitiers]

you, too? i guess. i just hope i can still help somehow. more than our abilities?

[lockdownbuild]

Just because we're good at fighting doesn't mean we can't do other things, right? There's plenty of ways to help out.

[ornitiers]

i do want to. if i can figure out how.

[lockdownbuild]

You're trying to figure out how and that's a really good step towards doing it. It's more than a lot of people do.

[ornitiers]

you think so? i mean, i guess it's a start, but. i guess i feel like it seems like i should know more? be more confident?

[lockdownbuild]

How much of that feeling like you've got to be better immediately comes from being used to not having much time?

[ornitiers]

huh? um. i don't know. maybe that's part of it?

[lockdownbuild]

In some ways, that feeling's never going to go away. I still have it. But use it as motivation, not self-denigration. It's not that you're 'supposed' to be better now, it's that you want to be better today than you were yesterday, and better tomorrow than you were today. Gives you something to aim for.

[ornitiers]

use it as motivation? oh. right! yeah. i can try that!

[lockdownbuild]

You got it. We all started at the bottom. But no one climbed higher without wanting to.

[ornitiers]

right! i think i get it! i like that idea, yeah.

[lockdownbuild]

And if you ever need some help, feel free to ask.

[ornitiers]

um, okay. it wouldn't be bothering you?

[lockdownbuild]

Not at all. It'd be a nice break from the boredom.

[ornitiers]

oh. alright. i will, then. if it's okay.

[lockdownbuild]

In general, it will be. If there's ever a reason it's not a good time, I'll explain why as best I can and reschedule, okay?

[ornitiers]

alright. that sounds fine with me. i'm not sure if i can really offer the same, but. i can at least try and listen? if you need as well?

[lockdownbuild]

See? You're already doing good and helpful things without needing your magic.

Thanks. I'm mostly just grumpy because I've been shooting for a goal for a long time and haven't succeeded yet.