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what do you do when something you were told, turns out not to be true anymore? not true here? when you have more time than you thought. i didn't have to really think about the future. but here, i don't have to worry. i can plan. i mean, besides helping on missions.

[Being told he probably wouldn't live much longer than a year or so. And then Aurora reassured him that that wasn't the case. Vivi now has a lot to consider....]

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oh. i don't think she seems so bad. i guess that's just me, but she has helped me. i can't say for everyone else.

People don't mind shooting the messenger, especially when the messenger might have some culpability.

So getting back to your original question, what were you doing before you came here?

and aurora is the messenger? because she is who we usually first talk to here?

i was helping my friends. we had just fought to stop kuja. my friend zidane went down to check on him after. that's the last thing i remember. before i came here. i guess, here, i can still help? i mean, by doing the missions. try to help keep them, my home, safe? i'm just trying to think of what else i could do, besides that. i haven't really had to think about it before. plan like that.

Yeah, she's the one who met us all, right? That's what I hear. So she's the one who got to tell us all the news.

Hmm, sounds like you're used to fighting.

[To put it mildly, since it sounds like he was in an adventuring party, and considering his stated age...]

I should start by saying we don't know what makes a world 'worthy' of saving. So all you can do at that point is do what you think would demonstrate a world is worth saving, and do that. Which I don't think you'll have too much of a problem with because you're worried about it in the first place, which means you care.

right. yeah. her.

i am. yeah. i can use my spells to help. if i have to. and i want to help if i can. with missions, or whatever else might help prove my home is worth saving.

Oh, a caster! I'm guessing not wizard or cleric, so sorcerer? Warmage?

[Wizard is impossible because of the time involved to become one; less than a year of life doesn't permit the extensive study and practice that wizardry requires. And a total lack of any sort of religious mention associated with the spells, or even in general, rules out cleric. So he must be one of those gifted with magic in the blood and a knack for producing it.]

i'm a black mage. i guess it's probably kind of like a wizard since i can cast spells? i'm not sure on the specifics though.

[He was created to fight. So it isn't surprising that he has an affinity for offensive spells as a result. Or ones that can impact his opponents. That sort of thing comes in handy with having an army of black mages just like him.]

Defining terms for you then. A wizard studies and memorizes many spells but has less power to cast them in a given period. A sorcerer develops spells innately from their nature, so has a few spells they can cast repeatedly. A warmage is basically a sorcerer who knows a lot more spells, but only combat-related ones.

[Although the wizard she'd worked with had been... well, let's just look at those definitions and then say he was a wizard who only knew combat spells. Which is why she rarely mentions his contributions.]

oh. i guess maybe a warmage sounds more like me? i'm a black mage, so the spells i know are mostly offensive magic for battle. since we were made to fight.

[Very young. Made to fight. Discovering more time than expected. Don't need to draw her a map.]

We had a warmage in our number during the last half of our battles at home, so I know how useful they can be. And hey, I already like you better than her, so you're definitely a good companion as far as I'm concerned.

you do? but. you barely know me yet?

You come off as nice, helpful, and reasonable.

And even putting that aside, I like my mortal enemy more than I liked Cissy I think it would be nice to adventure with a capable spellcaster who I can actually trust.

oh. well, um. thank you? i guess my spells could help, it'd just depend on what you'd need a mage for? mine are more offensive for fighting, really.

That's all I'm good for too, fighting, so if any situation where that's not called for I'm as unsuited to as you are. Of course we're both more than our abilities, right?

you, too? i guess. i just hope i can still help somehow. more than our abilities?

Just because we're good at fighting doesn't mean we can't do other things, right? There's plenty of ways to help out.

i do want to. if i can figure out how.

You're trying to figure out how and that's a really good step towards doing it. It's more than a lot of people do.

you think so? i mean, i guess it's a start, but. i guess i feel like it seems like i should know more? be more confident?

How much of that feeling like you've got to be better immediately comes from being used to not having much time?

huh? um. i don't know. maybe that's part of it?

In some ways, that feeling's never going to go away. I still have it. But use it as motivation, not self-denigration. It's not that you're 'supposed' to be better now, it's that you want to be better today than you were yesterday, and better tomorrow than you were today. Gives you something to aim for.

use it as motivation? oh. right! yeah. i can try that!

You got it. We all started at the bottom. But no one climbed higher without wanting to.

right! i think i get it! i like that idea, yeah.

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